Sunday, July 17, 2011

Human Monk-ey!!

    How does it feel to be a monkey once in your human life and do everything that a monk-ey could do? LOL! Naah, not really giggling however me, the precious one would love to try it..
I mean how would the experience be?? I can't just stop tinking (new slang) about it..

JUST IMAGINE..!! Me on a tree.. and Raffia flashing the light for shots.. ha ha.. 
Cant wait.. You could say that I am so wanting to do that.. Aahahahahah.. Tree Tree. 
But if I fall.. I wudn't have regrets because I  would have completed my goal ;).. 

If you actually set the vision for it, its fascinating, lively.. vicious.. wohoooo.. 
Being a monk-ey wont be bad for me.. to say that in simpler slang.. CANT BE BAD FOR ANYBODY.. Coz its a passion too.. lol.. to be a human monk-ey.. Think About it.. 

Could be an Aim too if you see.. ha ha.. Would fulfil it soon Amigos/Amigas.. Waiting, Waiting to climb a tree.. I see!! 

Thursday, July 14, 2011

Its hard bidding farewell to people or..

Just like everyday, i end up being there at 10am.. to make sure that the person i have taken charge of is in the pink of her health.. but how would she be when ... when everything is happening the opposite?
Not a job but more likely a responsibility .. how awkward is it that some strangers happen to be a darling to you, whereas some dear ones, make you see the transformed word "dear" by them.. What a world.. what a world..
This Clan is never going to modify.. same thoughts.. same criteria.. same conclusions.. What a world!!

But when i gaze at her, questioning my own self that the lady who was so audacious, so daring is on the verge of demise herself today, i end up getting goosebumps. Life is so short.. so unpredictable... a moment a person's sitting with you cuddling, conversing and the other moment.. you are collapsed.. Just like headlines in the newspaper everyday, why cant the tag be formed on people.. Its insane, pondering over stuff like your whole life with one person, and just another minute, you end up crying for whatsoever happened.. Why??

She doesn't know she has Cancer.. and i am helpless.. cant say nothing.. However when i see her saying "I am in pain dear".. Tears roll down my eyes, convincing myself that i ll set her okay.. saying to myself that i understand, aunt, but i just don't want you to know what illness you are suffering from.. You might not have the audacity to live that single day that you been living until now after knowing it..

I aid her.. I cook for her.. I don't let her work.. I will be the person working for her day n night.. But the only thing i demand in return is for her to be bold.. and fight back life.. Coz you may die today, but that stamina and that spirit you live with , never dies..

I ll carry on with my work.. but for the ones who are fighting against this heinous disease have courage, you people should be proud of yourselves that you have accomplished what you came into this world for.. Even though your journey is ending, you should be glad your life was just as fun as a normal person now would be living.. don't frown.. you have cherished what you have had.. and now, its time to differ.. Soul in peace..

Wednesday, July 6, 2011

I fathom 'Us'.. I do..

      You have been close to me,
Its only you who have been;
Its me who fathom, I do
But how do I do it irrespective of the absence..

I fathom us composed;
Hand in hand
Glaring at each other;
with engrossed in thoughts..

As we come closer,
we lean, we kiss;
To feel the soul,
& give ourselves a thought..

I fathom, I do of us interacting
the day we have been waiting for;
To get along; to communicate without words
To know each other even more so that no qualms hold the place..

We are one; 1 soul 
However my love will be increasing with time just like -
The messages on everyday basis;
the letters, the stories we have created;
Symbolize something uncommon..

Dont you fathom us together?
Hand in hand;
Glaring at each other;
with engrossed in thoughts?

We desire each other, 
Our future's one..
You dont need to be worried..

I see us one in every circumstance
But how would i do it by myself without you?
Fantasizing is only what i do..  
With you... However only with you..!! 

Tuesday, July 5, 2011

Once in a While..

"Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life." 
 Bob Marley

List of "To be done Stuff"

Oh Lord, I have this list which never ends.. There is no particular age of doing all this, but my desire to have them fulfilled is a chimera !! INDEED !!

                   Read alot more - The last e years have been real bad in terms of reading. Even  though I am a reader, but somehow i try to stay away from books.. I am just too smart to get near them, ha ha... Naah, but today i actually fetched some novels from the library in order to keep myself occupied in this 2 month vacation.. However, I do read a lot of stuff online - articles, blogs, stories etc..  I value learning in all forms and am not discriminating hard copies to soft copies but I am still an ardent fan of physical books. I want to get back to that.

                 Drink to the fullest once in my life - Umm Usually not my type, but i believe once in a while Boozing wont be bad for you? or is it?? Do i care when i go insane? Well not really but Once in my life, I would LOVE to get drunk to the highest point. Its sort of a impression to set on people, You know.. I just like messing around.. & then get bullied later.. uhh those mates!! Naah, I have never gotten that chance of getting drunk, perhaps i dont like such companies.. yah the 2nd one is legit.. But once sounds no bad to me.. 

             Get Social - I am such an Introvert.. A reserved personality.. I was so born with it, BY GOD!! But i like it like tht?? I mean m not in a company of people who go on and on.. I have no inclination for them, Coz sooner or later they get me off the track somehow.. Getting on age might make me talk.. would it?? Lets see, hoping to see the brightest side of such stuff too !! 

            Travel More - OHHHHH !! Its travelling.. Am i even related to it?? As a matter of fact, I do travel.. Am so not a home buddy.. But still, Travelling as in Other states, not in terms of market or picnics.. Duh !! That is so casual.. But yah.. India is my # 1 priority in terms of travelling.. Ha ha
Will soon plan to head on a world tour.. Oh yahh !! Might get lil too lavish, but ; but who cares?

These were the basic things i need to get updated with.. Some minor ones include Eating.. Exercising.. Study Mathematics.. Babysitting perhaps.. aah !! & some other stuff..
Oh yah.. I also hate being lost while watching movies.. Its like my personality trait.. Do i also need to lower down my staring level at people?? haha.. We ll talk about that later ! !

Saturday, July 2, 2011

My Aspiration.. Wishes waiting for me to be focused on..

Stop being a loser, grow up and get along with situations.. 

Every person on this planet has some passion for something.. some dedication.. some desire.. some wishes they are wanting to accomplish.. Will it be fulfilled on its own? NO! To earn something, you be a slave of your dreams, because without the aid of your own self, you accomplish; you achieve nothing but the sole word L. Loser am supposing ! Just like every person, I have this everlasting vision to be a known personality.. A personality which is out of Media 24/7.. A fact - Media is a piece of shit i assume, which likes to get you famous and on the verge of elimination.. What would be the point of success forever when its ending sometime soon?? I would want to be a name which makes a difference in this world, a legend which would never diminish.. a name of power.. Latika Sareen !!

Even though there be narrow line of community who want golden lines of your name, not everybody expects the same.. That small number of clan is your awakening.. your desire to be pushed.. My encouragement.. my assistance lies in the words.. the words which carry the factor of being affected.. That is my approach..

Dancing, Writing & Singing are my hardcore Passions.. My elation, my Ecstasy is in these heavy words which aid me to work.. work harder & earn my status in this shrewd world.. To be appreciated by those helpless people.. for whom i would be a source of Enthusiasm, Creativity.. Life..
I am inspired by those T.V dance shows, by those people in it who toil to the fullest just to be praised once by those legends, the humans who get MAD for what they have been just glancing at.. Their motives in this short span of time.. I am inspired by those Writings, those speeches declared by Known Personalities.. Ones who distincted their selves from others. Some are at lofty heights today and some - still toiling day and night to stretch their arms upto the target they have in mind..

Having the feel to be one of them is another achievement. Or am i too late in commencing afresh?  Only 19! 19 and new goals are being formulated.. which are on the side to click me and scream; "You have to do it, You get to set the conclusion, do not leave the paragraphs behind.. Get on with life and do the goddamn thing you have been wanting to.. " Having such notion in mind is what setting me for.. I believe I have to do it.. Since I wana be a master in Singing, Dancing and Writing.. Attaining it would be intricate however, surviving the storm is my goal now.. Not only Enduring it, but bending it down would be a dispute..
Someday.. This unknown, with extreme concepts would be "somebody" in this world.. The one to be seen mentally..

These Words would continue being dynamic to every individual and attain what they have their delight in..
After being a graceful Dancer, a flawless singer, and a collected writer.. wont life be all set?? I mean, ha ha would imply to be a non ending chimera..

"There are two ways of spreading light: to be the candle or the mirror that reflects it." - Edith Wharton 
Wont give up.. The dominant words stay still.. and me, just two steps ahead of my thinking.. because my goal is to be reached.. my goal.. is still to be earned.. 

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

Should it be left or loved?

I have known that love does not require evidence.. or does it??? If it does then just a piece of proof justifies it? And if it does not then why do we need to justify what we mean?? These questions have been circling my head.. Am i supposed to leave it or adore it?? I dont know !! Yah, this is the state where i am not inclined towards it.. The answer blurred out is "I dont know".. Justifying what i have been yearning for; instead why i have been yearning for it is like punching the dead face with no sentiments of your own.. Hahah.. uh! Does one really need an account for why they have been a loved one to us?

I justified it.. He demanded and i as a crazy lover walked behind.. perhaps weakness made me do it??
Again I dont know.. How long does it take to fall in love wit someone?? 1 week?? 6 months?? 5 years ?? a lifetime or just 24 hours?? Took me 10 mins ! 10 mins and i am prone to this one personality which suited me accordingly..
After 2 years and 4 months, the very same person is demanding which was not worth it... Demands.. wishes.. observations.. luk at all the words, a word which transforms the meaning of what you been trying to say..

Yah.. liking wudn't be enough.. it is love.. Traditional or modern? Is that even a concern in real? Or is it the 3 years difference which makes one feel that she aint thinking right?? What is it?? Why is it?? Isn't that word "love" supposed to be what it really should be?? Is decision making an issue?? What the heck is the case after all??
I have just been chasing my heart.. Chasing him so that i could own him?? And he asks for evidence.. Waa !
Nope, does not paranoid me, however such words from a darling happen to be astounding; coz i dont anticipate such?

Just one desire to be fulfilled was the condition.. It was made a big deal.. The perception might was fallacious, was that the same with intentions?? Trust, got a part in the conversation too.. Yah, staying one for him was a big deal i suppose.. Forgotten times when drunk him uttered the sober words? Forgotten times when the only tune i hummed was him gasping? Forgotten the times, when we talked and every time we did, every time i heard your voice, i had a feeling which made me close my fist and exhale? Forgotten the times, when i cancelled my plans just to converse with this one damn person?? Are these times forgotten when my 1st priority was him and then other events, people.. however he forced me to categorize em as 1st.. And i was the one not trustworthy when all i have been is loyal? Times when i filled my diary with your name.. with your notes, just because i wanted it to be a part of my recognition? And you talk trust..

You may not find any good in this generation, but this one me is ultimate.. Often times, ones who are dear to you.. intentionally; unintentionally break your trust.. But I would never dare to do that.. Because now you have been allotted something really precious - My Humanity.. My compassion.. And i so believe that i do not have to put myself to a test for anybody.. I anticipate that if you could be the best one on this planet.. then i am so much better than this public out there too.. I form my own reality.. and I; Latika Sareen wont bother to distressed anybody out of emotions... Yah, that is how you trust someone.. My foot. !! Your belief in me should have been a little firm so that the guilt of you offending me was to a lower level.. but i Still assume that miracles do happen.. Be it distance or other matter, what is meant to be would fit into each other somehow..

My questions stays identical to previous one.. Should it be abandoned or loved to the fullest..?? Just to convince myself.. My mind is not able to take over my heart.. Emotions, getting me the wrong path..
Oh love is thee !

Saturday, June 4, 2011

Its a Journey to be continued..

I remember i was 10, clamoring and weeping while screeching  : "Mummy, you cant go, you cant leave your kids and reside in a place where you wont find satisfaction".. those days were something when she was feeble; helpless because she was trynna snatch a good life for her kids in this material world. We were too small to understand such talks, yahh.. It was meant to be an "Understanding Plight" where i lacked brain.. I was 10.
Growing up was a big task handed over to me, t' was a bundle of authorities to be concerned about.. Again, i was just 10 years old..

11..12..13.. Moved on.. Until 16 i remained an infant.. However should i term it as a wish or a fulfilled desire that the matter I have wished for until now in my life, nothing has gone in vain.. Those efforts to get things done, even as a child were priceless.. Some excitements take your breath away; perplex you; astound you; while some just pass by your mind and claim that "you are worthy of all this".. Isnt that beautiful? I mean, such a unique clutch you get a hold onto and it stays.. it does stay.. for long..

Dad used to stay with me in our house, Delhi.. While he used to sing me lullabys and narrate stories, mummy was busy pondering over her kid's snapshots. It was another moment that seized my heart..
The love, the affection, the care.. nothing is bullshit unless you really close your eyes and mean each and every word of the insult.. I have always supposed my parents to be the greatest like every othr child. Am i not blessed to have them; ones  who admire you every moment.. ones who take care of your unexpressed feelings.. ones who support you when you limp.. delightful!!

Its being carried on.. It is, truly.. the same sensation of cherishing them.. all.. myself.. and you!

Its a mixed packet of spices.. nevertheless am just gazing at the brightest color.. I amm...

Saturday, May 28, 2011

Miles dont Matter ~~

No matter what, we will be leading it together.. 
You are the one, you will be the one,
With a ray of sun to be in action...
It was your soul that i adored,
The rest was just to be implored..

We may be apart miles along;
I still surrender to u alone..

The meetings are termed as "unknown"
However still i yearn to see the zone..

Be it touch or a feeling..
Your face is always appealing,
There are no boundaries to our affection,
All i see is your reflection..

I am yours, hence you are mine,
Longing to be the one;
Once we feel the touch together,
All we could share is the love between us forever..& Forever...

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

Feeling Unusual **

Particularly as the image, we are ultimate huny.. 
 There always have been 'n' number of times when i have felt the same i.e nothing extraordinary really has happened to me. However there comes a turn on the road when waves in the ocean promote. I stood still when my heart skipped a beat and I.. I gasped.. It was intense. Felt as if its just me who exists in this beautiful creation. It was sound and atoning, for a while i couldn't put a limit on my giggle. It began with a flow and never took a pause.
It was a couple of years ago.. We had never interacted before, it was the first time, it indeed was the first time.. But how could the first time be such an enchanting image that you yearn for several others like that?
Yahoo was a medium to converse.. There was apprehension from both sides, the restlessness of contacting for the primary time. Things weren't stable, nonetheless he called.. I heard him, it was like a grip instructing me to catch his voice and.. and breathe..I smiled without letting his ears notice..

For about hours, we conversed on the phone. Naa naa it was nothing personal, we conferred our experiences, our strength, likes, dislikes, family etc. That night seemed to be an illusion. A live dream!! ha ha..
I felt a stroke commanding me to accept his voice as a tone of some extraordinary belief..  I loved it..!!

O Yah.. there were nights and mornings succeeding the old ones.. The times when we used to crash on the phone itself while communicating,the best conversations were at 3 AM, the most sincere words were from the heart, and the best moments were those spontanious urges to seize the moment. .. the wait and elation to listen to each other & engrossed in thoughts somewhere.. We used to get hold of unoccupied times hurriedly.. Gradually, the peculiar of us entered the circle of stronger bond which we anticipated to be fortune. The memories which are certainly noteworthy. After all, this feeling was unusual..
  Days and Months passed.. there was this sensation of feeling inclined to this one person, who was bizzare a couple of months ago. The penchant of him, replaced an associates status. It was now seeming to b a little more.. Just a little more.. It is said that "Your sentiments should be as smooth as water on the mountains, so that the one you admire, gets an account of your feelings". Something like that had occurred when he had a job & chatted while working. Be it day or night, i used to wait for those minutes when i will receive a 'hello'.. At times, our calls used to take more than 5 hours in a row.. Again, it was nothing personal, however chatting about our 'Crushes' wasn't a bad commence. I infer that we were young enough to consider affairs contemptibly.

Though, it seemed that we really had felt special about each other in a short span of time.. For the level of comfort.. easiness was not found in anybody else in these years except him.. And absurd me, who uttered everything at once. HE GOT TO KNOW IT!! I admitted that i like him intensely..Aah, one question.. Why, why am i so bashful?
I could never pick an answer for this.. Besides he used to be in a fit of rage because of my shyness. He likes it too.. ha ha.. Seems to be contradictory know? Besides all the talks, and appealing personality.. We used to throughly have a dispute.. It was like a part of our schedule, trivial matters and one of us had to start..
Was like we were paranoid and after 2 days, i had to pacify him.. Sadly, hes really stubborn, Whereas I am the punk, he he.. I didn't really care about the quarrels of daily times, I could be the one loving you and disliking to the utmost in general.. Just me..!!

O boy, those days were something else.. It was naive, but an insanity within something.. It was Beautiful..
& it still is a mesmerizing pleasure..Months passed.. Perhaps a year too.. i no longer could hold back the actual desire to see him.. to gossip and say all unsaid .. maybe it wasn't that basic to do what i estimated.. The unusual thing grew.. The inkling about liking each other 'alot' remained constant. The things were told.. Moments that were equally cherished..
O well.. a story had commenced, a saga, which wasn't there to terminate, but to be loyal and prolong with it.. Yah the Partial Crush.. It's not uncanny to be with just the one you value.. It's just a symbol of being together.. together.. Yah optimistically, that has to happen. I like/liked his soul, fell in love with it and now the attachment ultimately means his presence.. That close link with him was one of a kind.. is one of a kind.. & will be one of a kind in some circumstances..

He has always wished good for me.. "Wants me content in any & every way, that's his motive".. He couldn't made anything better than what actually had happened, it was & is something momentous..
which has had an alluring impression..on me & him..

"True love stories never have endings... They just dont.. & so this love story will never come to a halt..It cant be defined, it can only be felt.. by just me and him"...
Your Lats!!